Back to normal… For lockdown 2.0

I was so excited to go back to work this week, back to my desk and normality. Having a reason to get up and dressed and use some brain function, felt amazing!

But then lockdown happened again, there has been a confirmed case of covid at my daughter’s school, not her year or her “bubble” but you know it won’t be long and then we all have to quarantine.

For now I am just trying to stay positive, wash our hands and all have sanitizer, only leave the house if we absolutely have too and show as much love and compassion to anyone who needs it. There are tough times all around so please remember to be kind.

I will continue to be a normal productive member of society until I am told to stay home indefinitely, enjoying the small bit of normality I can before it crashes down again for Christmas. Blessed be 💜

Coming or going? Who knows!

I have two moods at the moment and switching between the two is getting exhausting. Happy me is cool, she gets shit done and meditates, she talks to people and is positive! Moody me is draining, always bored and tired, never has any motivation to rectify this situation and expects everyone else to it all for her but without her having to communicate a thing!

I can start the day one way and end the other but trying to purposefully change them, impossible! I have to remind myself to catch my negative thoughts, I’m constantly analysing every word that flows through my brain to the point I can’t tell what’s right and what’s made up.

This is where therapy and self care come into saving me from my mental health, being my escape from my own brain. Meditation is best for this but it’s not always possible to get into the right mind set, you have to think of it as training. It’s a muscle you need to make strong to be able to use it to it’s best potential so don’t be hard on yourself if it takes a while to figure it out, I’m still learning every time.

If you are struggling then take some time out for yourself, tell yourself you need to time to recharge. Take a hot bath or read a book or article you have been wanting too. Go for a walk to somewhere you have never been before or your favourite spot, just be in nature for a while. There are so many ways that you can self care just find the ones you enjoy and take time to really enjoy them, savour them and in your times of need, revisit them.

Thank you for reading more of my ramblings, if I struggle to figure myself out I do wonder what you all must think? Today I send you all love and light, positive energy and acceptance. Whoever you are and wherever you are, love yourself! Blessed be 💜

The endless possibilities, but why does my heart still hurt?

I have been trying today to take myself that step higher, that step further within my beliefs and spirituality. I have read a lot of articles surrounding the rewire your own brain formula. it is very similar to my therapy when you break it down in to basic terms, just don’t think them thoughts, don’t give them your energy. It all sounds so simple but it is what works. With meditation and belief, opening up your heart and your mind and just accepting who you are. understanding no one is perfect but we should always be kind, that just because you don’t agree with someone’s way of thinking, if it doesn’t affect anyone, then you have no right to judge. Maybe I’m wrong?

I don’t normally comment on hate post’s on social media, I am not the argue through the screen type normally, well to be honest I tend to shy away from conflict completely unless it is absolutely necessary but I always try to stand my ground. I watched a video earlier, an amazing young boy was doing a makeup tutorial and he was good, I mean, make up artist/ drag queen perfection! he had talent! I was in awe of him for the entirety of the video and couldn’t help but notice the top comment, it was awful The hate and judgement and bullying of this poor boy for doing what he obviously loves. It really makes my heart hurt, and that’s what I said. I was no prepared for the comments I would get!

It makes sad and worried for humanity sometimes. The hate and judgement and nasty comments from people who dont even know this boy. That’s enought internet for today. I just wanted to share this to put out some love, to give anyone who is reading this a little piece of my energy to help with your day, to share good thoughts and positive vibes as the world really needs more of that. Blessed be.