I feel very mixed emotions and energies today, I’ve put it down to the full moon but I can’t be certain that’s all it is.
I start second guessing and overthinking. I feel so sad and angry with no valid reason why. I feel I want to socialize and isolate all at the same time. I really want to put on four layers of clothes and go walking in the rain but can’t be bothered to explain why I want to do it alone.
So many awful things have happened in my town this week too that it honestly doesn’t feel safe walking alone in the dark, especially through wooded areas! Community isn’t an option anymore for someone trying to find their way either as apparently a second lockdown is imminent.
I spent today cleaning and cleansing my crystals so I can charge them under the blue moon on Halloween, trying to clear my mind and shake this feeling but it’s proving impossible. I would give my right arm for a bath this evening but with only a wet room a shower is my only option.
I’m going to meditate for a bit and cleanse myself in the shower hoping the moon can charge me too! Blessed be 💜
Today has been a struggle, I don’t know about anyone else but I have not managed to do anything productive today. I did my cards and I meditated for a little while this morning, I cooked for the fam as they still need to eat but I couldn’t manage to eat anything myself. I have always had a strange relationship with food, I either eat it all or have two bites and say I’m done, and today I couldn’t even manage one bite, I just done feel right. I feel sick and lethargic, I feel stressed but with no real reason to be and my anxiety has been driving me nuts today! hands constantly sweating and my heart just deciding to race for no reason. I feel tired but I cant sleep. I have written out so many messages today and just decided not to send them, I know the mood I’m in I would snap at someone who doesn’t deserve it just because of my mood, so I just avoided all contact today, you know the saying, “if you don’t have anything nice to say then don’t say anything at all” well that’s todays moto.
I know the moon is in retrograde, I know that emotions are running high everywhere right now and the world doesn’t need another grumpy opinion so I’ve stayed pretty quiet today. I want to send out positive vibes and I want to send out good feelings but I cant even share that with myself today. Its been a struggle but there is tomorrow. Blessed Be.