Bitten in the butt!

I had a wonderful epiphany the other day, I want a room outside where I can sit in the dry, where my teenager can chill with her friends that’s not in my house so I bought a gazebo! Genius.

Not so much, you live in England! I have this thing tied down in every corner, I have it tied to my house and the fence yet the poles keep popping out. The wind sounds like it’s going to take the whole thing away and the sides have ripped where they should be tied. Not so genius!

I am due to go back to work this week so have been sorting the house out ready for winter just incase I don’t have time later on. I completely gutted the garden so it looked fresh during winter and didn’t make me sad, hence the wonderful gazebo idea. The house is all clean and tidy, and my mind feels clear with it ready to re-enter society.

I shall try not to be sad about my bad idea, we all have them and as long as we use them as a lesson then it was all for a reason, no matter how frustrating. Now to try and take this thing down. Wish me luck. Blessed be 💜

To be grateful…

What am i grateful for? Lots really. I have an awesome support unit with my husband, my sister, my dad and my daughter, I have a great support unit far an wide with family all over the country. I have a home I love even if I am thinking of leaving it. I am grateful for life, for waking up every morning, be it a good mood or bad, for wanting to heal myself and for starting this journey I had talked about for so long.

Yesterday was a good day, the sun was out and I got the pool out, BBQ food was amazing and I do love feeding my family. I dont have many talents but I can cook! My alter is constantly being changed and bits added or removed I just love meditating surrounded by my plants and incense, candles and lights. It’s my happy place.

If I could ask all you lovely people to please please click on my blog and read my page about Jacobs Journey, it’s a charity walk I am doing to raise money for a very special little boy. Any donations received will be amazing. Pop a comment on the page so I can try to keep track. Blessed be ♥️

The gardening begins,

My personality is impulsive and impatient. Not the best combination to have when I want to learn new things or pick up a skill. I want to know it all and I want to know it now and I want to be perfect straight away. Even though I’m aware of what stupid and ridiculous pressures I am putting on myself I still get frustrated when it takes me a while to understand or learn new things.

The growing my garden from scratch wasn’t working so I resorted to buying flowers and creating a indoor garden space, I just have to keep them alive and that really cant be that hard if I’m trying right!? water them once on cold days and twice on hot days, just a little spritz to make the earth damp, don’t create a puddle. talk to them and let them know I love them. I have raised a child, kept a Husband alive for 8 whole years and had several cats so why are plants so different?

The back garden space is a lot cleaner and clearer now, I have power washed both the small patios and whacked back all the weeds and stinging nettles. I have a small wild flower garden spaced off at the back where I have been putting lots of seeds down, I’m hoping its going to be a beautiful small meadow next year! its still not done and no where near an outside oasis but at least it looks like a maintained plain back garden now, oh! and I got a small orange tree, its the cutest little thing I have ever seen!

Please visit my site and see my other pages, I have inspirational meme’s and pages of things I have learnt. I am going to write a gardening page and put up some pictures of my little indoor oasis so if you are interested please pop over and say hi! Blessed Be.