Anarchyandanxiety

Feeling like I have let myself down.

The thing with depression and anxiety is it’s very much and ebb and flow. You can have days, weeks or months of feeling in control and that you are moving forward then one day it all feels wrong. You start overthinking everything, you start judging yourself and how everyone else sees you and without even…

The sneaky panic attack.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 18th Apr 2021

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My panic attacks have become few and far between lately, I put it down to a clear routine that I work towards, daily meditation and exercise in the morning. But, after all of that, I still found myself sitting at the end of my bed Friday morning trying desperately to breath my way out of…

Where do I start!

Now I have decided what I want to do and where to go from here it feels like the more I read and research the more confused I become…. Opening a business and agreeing to the whole wide world judging you and having an opinion on your lifestyle is a big step! Can I even…

Springs first BBQ.

Yesterday was a very good day. I woke up feeling a bit shit but knew I had invited over my dad for an Easter BBQ, I had already braved the shopping and the fridge and freezer was fully stocked so it was just prep and cooking to tackle. I had a shower and envisioned all…

Trusting my intuition.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 3rd Apr 2021

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I have been reading a lot about Tarot cards and having the ability to read them. I have always felt a draw to the cards and thought I would attempt to give it a go, I have always believed I had a great intuition when my anxiety wasn’t in control as it is always telling…

Learning to grow.

I have spoken a few times on here about wanting a side hustle, to be able to make money from what I love doing but every time I try to move forward another bill lands on the mat and I realize all over again I need a 9-5 to survive. So I have come up…

Research and understanding.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 28th Mar 2021

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I had my first bad comment today, it was on social media so it doesn’t really count but for about five seconds it really knocked me back. Until I realised its just someone who has nothing better to do with their time than mock others, not the audience I was hoping for but at least…

Finding my strength

By: Anarchyandanxiety 26th Mar 202127th Mar 2021

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As every day seems to go by I seem to be finding a little bit more of myself, finding a bit more strength and motivation. I have found joy in the simple things and a sense of purpose and productivity in completing tasks I have set myself. I have started the re decoration of my…

Same shit different day

By: Anarchyandanxiety 25th Mar 2021

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I tend to not write on days there isn’t much going on but I’m going to change that. Half of the mental health battle is just being a functioning human being on a day to day basis. When you have days that you can get up and ready, can leave the house and do the…

Making a change.

I feel like I have been waiting for things to fall into place before I can start what I really want to do and all that is doing is delaying the inevitable. I want to be successful at writing but in order to do this i need to write, setting my first task as a…

Top tips for a panic attack.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 5th Mar 2021

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These are the best ways I find to calm myself out of a panic attack, I hope you can use any of these to make yourself deal better with anxiety. Grounding. I find grounding helps if I am at home and sitting still isn’t helping me calm down. Take off your shoes and socks and…

If you have nothing nice to say, then don’t say anything.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 21st Feb 2021

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I haven’t posted for a while, I have written a few blog posts but haven’t published them. I was reacting to a situation I have no control over, in fact I was ranting and although it is good to vent your frustrations, publishing them might not be best. The conclusion I have come to over…

Unpopular opinion, I hate snow.

Everyone has been buzzing around the south of England the last few days because the snow is coming. My daughter came bouncing into my room this morning, mum! look out the window, it’s snowing!! Now while I will admit it looks very pretty all undisturbed from behind a window, I am not looking forward to…

Morning person.

I have never been a morning person, people who know me well just let me sleep because I am the grumpiest person to wake up but I have been trying to solve that. My new morning routine has me awake a lot earlier than normal but it means I have time now to do ten…

Knowing and doing.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 9th Jan 2021

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Knowing and doing are two very different things. Take now for instance, I know I should be doing something, anything really to help shake the cloud I have felt over me the last few weeks but instead I am wallowing, why? I don’t know. I should be meditating or doing some yoga to release the…

A Covid Christmas.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 31st Dec 2020

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So Christmas this year wasn’t anything like how it was planned. I received and email from my daughters school two days before Christmas that she had been exposed to Covid 19 and now had to isolate for 10 days. I thought if we managed to get her a test and it was negative we could…

Good morning!

By: Anarchyandanxiety 17th Dec 2020

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I managed a good morning routine today and I really want to try and stick too it. I woke up early and did the usual lunch boxes and cuppa tea and then meditated for ten minutes before anything else. I feel positive and motivated for it too! I said my affirmations and my morning words…

Novelty has worn off.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 11th Dec 2020

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Today is the last day of my first full week back to work. I have been a bit quiet recently trying to prepare myself to go back full time, I really liked my three day work week routine. It has been hard, a lot harder than two days of work I’m completely capable of should…

Smiling brightly!

By: Anarchyandanxiety 4th Dec 2020

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I have many reasons to smile at the moment, a roof over my head and food in the fridge, a family I love and job that needs me but I have always had one big problem with my confidence. My smile. I have extremely bad teeth, it’s embarrassing to admit to the big wide world…

Where do I fit in?

Do you ever remember sitting with your family, it could be over dinner or around the TV and thinking this is where I belong and these are my people. Well I never had that. As a kid I always felt like I was acting, like I was playing a part I needed to play for…

Family is complicated.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 21st Nov 2020

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I love my close family so much, the unit I have around me now is loving, supportive and honest with me. I can be myself and know that I wont be judged. We are close by and miles apart but the love and connection is unbreakable. My family unit however has not always been this…

Back to normal… For lockdown 2.0

I was so excited to go back to work this week, back to my desk and normality. Having a reason to get up and dressed and use some brain function, felt amazing! But then lockdown happened again, there has been a confirmed case of covid at my daughter’s school, not her year or her “bubble”…

Bitten in the butt!

By: Anarchyandanxiety 3rd Nov 2020

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I had a wonderful epiphany the other day, I want a room outside where I can sit in the dry, where my teenager can chill with her friends that’s not in my house so I bought a gazebo! Genius. Not so much, you live in England! I have this thing tied down in every corner,…

Full moon energy.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 31st Oct 2020

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I feel very mixed emotions and energies today, I’ve put it down to the full moon but I can’t be certain that’s all it is. I start second guessing and overthinking. I feel so sad and angry with no valid reason why. I feel I want to socialize and isolate all at the same time.…

Feeling positive about moving forward.

I have been away restoring my mental health the last few weeks. It seems to be a system I need to work through every few months. Self care and reassuring myself I am on the right path. Every time I wobble I get a reminder that I am not in this alone. A sign to…

Alone time.

I was worried when everyone went back to work that I would be lonely, that having no one with me all day was going to be bad for my mental health but I forgot how much I did love being alone. Peace and quiet to do as I please, want to read a book with…

Night time energy….

By: Anarchyandanxiety 17th Oct 2020

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I love it when I get a burst of energy, I don’t love it so much when it comes at 9pm. I want to clean and tidy, I want to sort and organized and everyone else wants to chill out. When I have these burst of energy during the day I know by evening the…

Coming or going? Who knows!

I have two moods at the moment and switching between the two is getting exhausting. Happy me is cool, she gets shit done and meditates, she talks to people and is positive! Moody me is draining, always bored and tired, never has any motivation to rectify this situation and expects everyone else to it all…

Never to old.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 11th Oct 2020

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I have been struggling with the concept of starting all over again in my 30s the last few weeks, being made redundant has made me rethink all the decisions I have made. I have a few qualifications in a few different things but I have never found the place where I have felt at home,…

World mental health day.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 10th Oct 2020

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Today is world mental health day, a day to try and be kind to everyone, we all have our demons and everyone deserves kindness. There are lots of platforms to reach out too if you are struggling. We are lucky here in the UK to have the NHS, sometimes you have to fight to be…

Adding to my crystal collection.

As I was walking through my local town center today I spotted an unusual stool I hadn’t noticed. It had so many beautiful crystals, Himalayan salt lamps, dreamcatchers and native American pictures. I was in awe! I took it as a sign that I was due a few more crystals to help raise my vibration…

Keeping your calm can be the best thing to do.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 8th Oct 2020

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Today has been a test. It has tested me more than it has in a very long time but I managed to keep my cool and hold down my reaction, to talk it through reasonably and express myself the way I wanted too. The stress and emotional abuse our family has received from my mother,…

David Attenborough, real legend.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 7th Oct 2020

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I woke up this morning feeling a bit disheveled, still sleepy and unsure what to do with my day. My half asleep brain thought David Attenborough’s new documentary on Netflix would be good morning TV. As much as I love watching nature, as much as I love and respect that man so much I have…

Not all days are good or bad, some are just meh.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 6th Oct 2020

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All illnesses, mental or not, you have your good and bad days. with my anxiety and depression I am either super controlled and motivated, eager and willing to learn or lazy and anxious, scared of my own shadow with no desire to interact with anyone. The rollercoaster is unbearable at times. Then sometimes you have…

Feeling supported.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 5th Oct 2020

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There aren’t many mornings I wake up with energy so I make the most of them. I have been to town and replenished my candles as well as grabbing some incense, I have done all my housework and have the second load of washing on. It doesn’t seem like much and in the grand scheme…

Building my vision board.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 4th Oct 2020

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Another way I’m trying to help my motivation to get back to the normal world of people is a vision board, more self help books and blogs have helped me start my journal so the next thing I think will help is a vision board. On there I have; find a job and spend more…

Moving forward.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 3rd Oct 2020

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All anyone can do in these very uncertain times is just move forward, and that is my only goal for next week, to move forward. Not be stagnant and scared, not be worried and overwhelmed. I want to make positive steps to make my life better, to try and help my mental health and get…

Now is the time, to do what exactly?

By: Anarchyandanxiety 30th Sep 2020

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Unfortunately I feel very much back at square 1 right now, like so many other people during these uncertain times I have been made redundant. Through no fault of anyone or anything other than the situation of the world right now, the pandemic, the virus and everything else that seems to be brewing around too.…

Sliding down to climb back up.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 20th Sep 2020

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I am constantly reminded that my illness has a mind of its own. I have been a bit up and down the last few weeks, trying to stay motivated and keeping things running but sometimes it’s just so hard. It’s hard not to let my mood effect the people around me, it’s hard to not…

Happy birthday blog!!

By: Anarchyandanxiety 9th Sep 2020

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Today marks the one year anniversary of me starting my blog. I haven’t achieved every thing I wanted too but I still feel I have done something. I have lots of followers on several platforms, I have written about my everyday life by not gone into some details I wanted too. There is still time!…

Is there a bully group chat!?

By: Anarchyandanxiety 26th Aug 2020

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I shared my post with you guys last week about bullying, about the issues my daughter was facing and that I understood how she feels. And then I get a follow request from one of my bullies!? I had a problem with this “woman” since I was in my teens. She looks down her nose…

I hate bullies.

By: Anarchyandanxiety 20th Aug 2020

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Bullying can be detrimental to your mental health at any age. When you are in school and its the people you are supposed to be friends with, it can lower self esteem horribly. I have been on this journey called bullying for many years, I have experienced it, I have done it and now I…