I feel like I have made some important decisions in the last few days, implementing them however is not going to be easy. My book is coming, the first few chapters just seemed to flow but now I am diving into the details it is not so flowy after all!
I will carry on and try to make some sense and flow to my story, I like the language and the story I have planned but like the rest of my life its the details that are screwing me over, and my impatient nature. I am my own worst enemy sometimes. Then I start to question everything and it all doesn’t make sense again, when can you tell the difference between your own intuition and the fears and reactions of your mental illness? not asking for a friend.
everything I want to do and aim at doing requires me to be motivated, for me to make decisions and stick with them and work hard because your dreams and wishes don’t just fall in your lap, but where do I begin? I have put myself out there, I have asked for help, I have applied and opened myself up so much more than I would do normally.
For now I will just keep doing what I’m doing, keep moving forward and trying to figure out what it is I actually want and how I am going to achieve these things, oh and writing my book. Blessed Be.